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December 1st, 2005

something's not right @ 12:46 pm

Current Mood: blank blank

Not quite sure, at a loss to express myself. Nothing wrong, at least not that I can point to and say "that's it" - but something's off somehow, something not quite right. Not physical, though that may be a little bit of it, whatever "it" is. Not quite emotional either - a little down but not a lot. Not sure how I feel, or if I even feel anything at all.

Lost ... I feel lost. Like I've lost a part of Me somewhere along the way, and didn't even realize it was missing for way too long. No clue where or when or how, maybe it just faded away little by little.

A little empty inside. Like wanting to know something, but not knowing enough to even form the right question to ask.

If I was missing something that didn't matter, then I wouldn't care that it was gone. And for a long time, I didn't miss it - but I do now. So it must have mattered once, whatever it is.

But if I don't know what's missing, how will I know if I find it again?

I just know I needed to write. Nothing in particular, just write, get it out there in the open. Maybe admitting a piece of Me is missing is the first step toward finding it again.
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Date:December 1st, 2005 06:41 pm (UTC)
I hate this feeling. And the not knowing when I lost it is the worst.

Have you thought about using a tarot card to jump start?
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Date:December 1st, 2005 07:22 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I've been in that place. Realizing something is missing is a profound and scary first step. I encourage you to keep writing about it, and when you want to talk feel free to talk to me.
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Date:December 3rd, 2005 12:07 pm (UTC)


Don't know that anything I say will help. I bet that what you feel you have lost isn't really lost - "It" may be right beside you but so close maybe you can't see it - find it - something like that. Then again, I could be totally off - take care (((hugs)))

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