Sometimes I wish I had everyone else's blinders, that I could only see whatever directly affects me and ignore the rest, let it fade to misty obscurity. But I can't not see the patterns, can't help but follow the web from one detail to the next. And it drives me totally insane that others are blind, that no one else sees all those connections that are glaringly obvious to me.
It's like trying to explain Green to someone who was born blind, there's simply no frame of reference. My brain's wired differently from theirs, I can never make them understand the way I do. Which makes me feel very, very much alone.